I’m at marathon training week 7. Every week for the last 7 weeks the week day workouts were fantastic and then the long runs would come … and go. The week that I actually did the runs they were less than stellar. I was exhausted, overheated, poorly hydrated or nourished. Most of the time, I didn’t even do the long runs.
on a rare long run. on MB’s bike. with him running behind me.
This past weekend was particularly bad. I had a 14 miler scheduled for Sunday. On Saturday night we stayed out and up to 1 AM. Sunday morning came and went and I promised MB that I would get it done in the afternoon after the sun started to set and it got cooler. The afternoon came and went and after so much hemming and hawing I hit the treadmill to do the first half of the 14 miles. And 4.25 miles in I was over it. I wasn’t particularly tired or anything I just didn’t want to do it. My head and my heart weren’t there with my legs. I came back to the apartment and told MB “I think this Marathon is not going to happen.”
I reached out to my tweeps about their experience with deferring major races on their calendars.
Then, after that outpouring of awesomeness from my loves I sent a lengthy email to coach/BFF/brother from another mother, Jeff. He sent the warmest, most honest reply.
Trust me I understand. I think you’re trying to get as many races in now that you can before you start your family. Take a step back and just look at the big picture Lauren. If you deferred MCM this year are you sure you’ll able to properly train and compete next year? How are you going to feel this year as MCM approaches and the day of as you’re standing on the side not competing? For me, it was very emotional when I couldn’t compete. Now I don’t want you to go through with MCM because of what I just said and have you suffer but think about it and think hard what is most important to you and Mark.
It seemed so simple after that email. I’m deferring this marathon.
Of course I feel like I complete failure. I haven’t cried but Iv’e done everything else. I’ve raged, I’ve felt depressed and now I’m starting to accept it. I’m not running the Marine Corps Marathon in 2014. And I’ll run it in 2015 probably.
I can’t say enough how big of a failure I feel like — it’s worth stating again. But I realized as I was trying to make peace with the deferment that I’m running 5 other major races this cycle. FIVE. Akron, The Great Race, The Tower of Terror Ten Miler, Wine & Dine, and the Walt Disney World Marathon. I have so many chances to redeem myself even if it’s not a marathon distance. Never mind the fact that I’m going to be surrounded by SO MUCH LOVE. My favorite Team 4 Princesses and a Frog, my dearest Mara, my family and my bestie Msheed, Hilary at her first W&D and during her first marathon plus all of my runDisney L-O-V-E-S. I’m going to have best fall. I’m going to take the time that my body needs to really heal from my back to back marathons this spring. And I’m going to have the best time. And maybe some other things!
This isn’t a failure it’s an opportunity to do the right thing by my body and myself.
Have you ever deferred a major race?